Birthday

Today I turn 41. Oh for the love! My sweetest friend Amy taught me that saying and I love it. It has been an extremely hard week trying to keep up. I feel as though I am trying to catch up so I can start living my life. I have felt that way for five years and I still haven't caught up. I guess I need to take a different approach. I almost took myself to the ER on Thursday night because I thought my anxiety and turned into a heart attack or stroke. I didn't, but the nerves the next morning had gathered in specific spots on my body...even around my ears.. weird. Today, Saturday, my face even hurts. I definitely need to go to the doctor. If anything happens to me, please someone tell my children every day how much I loved them. Beyond that Blaine came home from fishing and took me to dinner tonight. His mom watched the children. We went to Jakers in Missoula and it was very good and I ate more than enough! I desperately need to fit working out back into my schedule. I will have to be creative on this one. Well, time to go to bed ... Happy Birthday to me!