My Kylie Elle at six months.

Little Kylie Elle.  I love you more than I can describe.  I look forward to your wide eye mornings. Thank you for being my partner in crime at 5:00am. I am so glad we can share those early morning hours together before I must leave for work.  Hopefully someday you will understand the tears I shed doing so and know I did it for you.  I hope you too someday feel the importance of education and love to learn.  Because I worked, I hope I can send you out in to the world with a head start. You are so lovable. I love the way you giggle when I kiss your neck and as tiring as it may be I am glad you still love to nurse at 2:00 am.  I pray you have strength and confidence in this world.  I pray you have safety and good health.  Each day you grow, I hope our bond grows stronger.  On this Mother's Day as I write to you, I am saddened by the loss of a mother in my life, and I pray we can share the moments my mom and I were not able to. I love you Kylie Elle. I love you Kassidi Jalen and I love you Kaitlin Alexa-leigh.

Silver Mountain Water Park

Over Easter the family spent a night at Silver Mountain and played at their water park. It is only about 2 1/2 hours from our house so the trip was quick. The boys loved the surfing apparatus the park offered. A lot of rough spills before they figured it out. Everyone tried it, but Kassidi. Devon, Lizzy and Case met us there. We will definitely have to return sometime soon.

My Five Blessings: Kylie Elle Cox

My Five Blessings:
Kylie Elle Cox: "Kylie Elle Cox Almost five months old"

Thinking Back

Tonight Blaine and I found some old pictures. I found many childhood photos. Strange how looking at the photos, time flashes back and it seems like yesterday and then again it seems like a different lifetime ago. I love the picture of my dad, mom and two sisters. My mom must have had me a year or so later making her around 28 or 29 in this photo and my dad about 33. It looks so classic. The other two photos are from my birth picture at the hospital and another infant picture. I like the strawberry blond hair. It is just like Kylies.

Birthday

Today I turn 41. Oh for the love! My sweetest friend Amy taught me that saying and I love it. It has been an extremely hard week trying to keep up. I feel as though I am trying to catch up so I can start living my life. I have felt that way for five years and I still haven't caught up. I guess I need to take a different approach. I almost took myself to the ER on Thursday night because I thought my anxiety and turned into a heart attack or stroke. I didn't, but the nerves the next morning had gathered in specific spots on my body...even around my ears.. weird. Today, Saturday, my face even hurts. I definitely need to go to the doctor. If anything happens to me, please someone tell my children every day how much I loved them. Beyond that Blaine came home from fishing and took me to dinner tonight. His mom watched the children. We went to Jakers in Missoula and it was very good and I ate more than enough! I desperately need to fit working out back into my schedule. I will have to be creative on this one. Well, time to go to bed ... Happy Birthday to me!

Resident Goose

This morning as my children went to get into the car for school, a goose became overly friendly. My husband had said that this goose was dive bombing his car and he thought it was odd. Sure enough it is a family that lives about a mile away that has befriended this goose. It is obviously lost. The goose spent the entire day filling our porch with goose droppings and pecking at our front porch. At one point, our sitter opened the front door and it came in the living room. Luckily it wasn't too much trouble to lure it back outside. Equally interesting eight trumpeter swans have joined the goose and multiple ducks on our pond. Very cool! Pictures are coming.

Charlo's small town country prom

Went to Charlo's grand march at the prom. Interesting and different since this year they had a cowboy theme. Looked fun! The students were all introduced looking their finest. So many parents showed up. Very different from our proms at Capital High. We did not have a grand march or a hay bail:)

Kylie Elle Cox

Kylie Elle Cox

Almost five months old